A Million Words
Would Not Bring You Back,
I Know Because I’ve Tried.
Neither Would A Million Tears,
I Know Because I’ve Cried.

When I Look At You My Heart Skips A Beat
But Later That Beat Could Mean
A Lifetime Of Tears Wasted
On Something I Knew I Could Never Have

My Heart Was Taken By You,
Broken By You And Now Is In Pieces Because Of You

Of all the words of tongue or pen,
the saddest are those…
it might have been.

Who do you turn to when the only person
who can stop you from crying
is the one who is making you cry?

I understand that with loves comes pain,
but why did i have to love so much?

The worst feeling in the world is
giving all the love you have
and knowing it will never be returned.

Its hard to pretend you love
someone when you don’t
but its harder to pretend that
you don’t love someone when you really do.

Have you ever noticed that
the worst way to miss someone
is when they are right beside you
and you can never have them?

I’m afraid to love afraid to love so fast,
because every time I fall in love
it never seems to last.

There are times when
I cant decide whether to see you or not,
I want to see you because I miss you
but there are times when I dont want to see you
because everytime I do,
the fact that you dont see me
the way that I see you hurts me even more …

The weirdest thing happened the other morning…
I woke up with tears in my eyes…
and one rolling down my cheek…
and I knew I must have been dreaming of you again!

I’m not supposed to love you,
I’m not supposed to care,
I’m not supposed to live my life wishing you were there,
I’m not supposed to wonder where you are and what to do,
I’m sorry I can’t help myself, I’m in love with you.

I love you still..,, But know it’s bad..,, I still don’t know..,, Why I feel so sad

Our love ran deep..,, No other compared..,, Without you here..,, I’m alone and scared

There’s another guy now..,, He treats me well..,, But it doesn’t matter..,, It still feels like hell

I miss you more..,, With each turn of the clock..,, With each stroke of the hand..,, My heart I must lock

I ward you off..,, Even though you aren’t there..,, I?ve cried my eyes dry..,, And pulled out my hair

I back into a corner..,, And I let my head bow..,, I try to move on But I don?t know how

MOVING ON

When will I learn to just move on? When will I learn that he is gone? He really hurt me and made me cry. Now he doesn’t want me and I feel like i wanna die.

Every time I try to be by his side he pushed me away. But sadly all I wanna do is stay. He broke my heart so all i want to do is hide in the dark. I try to move on but he ruined all my ability to love another. I sometime’s want him back but he doesn’t want me, so why should I bother????

After all that we’ve shared he doesn’t even care. He doesn’t realize what he’s done to me. So I try to let him go and let him be. I won’t bother to call or ask what’s he’s up to at all. He doesn’t need my mess and don’t need a stress. The best thing for me is to leave him alone. The best thing for me is just move on.

2k3 is a great start new school, new friends & a new partner everything starts well,  to make the story short years have passed all good things turns to a nightmare, after 4 years the fairy tale story ended . Many says that I’m a "Martir" but the hell to those who say that do they know what I have gone through? I accepted all the rumors, the heartaches, the pains but still all of those was not recognized. I don’t know how it ended but sadly it happen, we need to continue our journey without each others company without the arms of each one of us, I don’t know how it started, I don’t know how it ends all I know is now I’m alone facing my own life, pursuing the dreams that we once build together.

I am a victim, yes I am coz he left me without hesitation, without explanation, without anything. He took my heart, he took my life

I admit until now I am prisoner of the past but is it my fault? I think it is, coz I build my life in him not knowing or without any confirmation that he feels the same way, I am a prisoner coz until now I’m still hoping that 1 day those dreams will continue that the fairy tale of our own life will have a happy ending, I’m still a prisoner of his love.

NOW, facing tomorrow is a new challenge, A BIG CHALLENGE. Its hard but I need to stand on my own feet, I need to do it to prove that he is not worth it but tell me how? I am use to live my life with him. The story ends but I am still here alive so I need to continue my journey all by myself ALL ALONE!!!!!!!

I hope the next time that I will post a blog I can compose a great 1 coz this moment I just want to voice out how I feel thanks for listening…. GOODNIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!!!